my first story here - Behkate huye kadam

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vikash- saali teri asliyat pure clg me dikhaunga or teri saare ke saare lenge..

tanu- (rote huye) vikash, tumne sabkuch to loot liya hmara, ab ye kya hai?
itne me ravi bol pada.
ravi- are yaar tu chal na jo kaam karna hai wo to krenge..

phir dinesh hmse bola..
dinesh- suno, agar kisi ko is baare me btaya to ye photo net par daal denge..
or itna kehkar wo haste huye bahar nikal gaye..

jis toofan ki maine kalpna ki thi wo tham chuka tha.. tham kya chuka tha balki apne piche ek bhayanak tabahi chhod gaya..

itne me tanu jor-2 se roti huyi mere sine se lipat gayi or boli..

tanu- didi ab kya hoga.. mai to kahi ki nahi rahi.. mai mar jaungi..
ye sunkar meri rooh kamp gayi
lekin maine use samjhaya ki wo un logo se baat kregi or sab thik ho jayega..

tanu- didi ye sab meri wjah se hua h agar mai apki baat maan leti to sayad aaj ye sab nhi hota.. or meri wjah se aap b..
wo bolte-2 ruk gayi or phir se rone lagi..
maine use kisi trah se chup kraya or usne apne kapde pehan liye..

ladkhadate kadmo se hum gaadi ke paas aaye.. or mere ghar ki or chal diye.. raste me hmari koi baat na huyi.. maine bolne ki try ki bt tanu ne koi jawab diya.. wo kisi gehri soch me doobi huyi gadi chala rahi thi..
itne me mera ghar aa gaya or mai niche utari.. usne ek najar muje dekha or apne ghar ki or chal di..
maine kuch der gaadi ki or dekha or andar aa gayee..

halke-2 kadmo se chalti huyi mai apne room ki or jane lagi.. sara sharir toot raha tha, khaskar niche ka hissa.. phir bhi mai chalti rahi..
har taraf se logon ka shor macha hua tha.. sabhi holi khelne me mashgool hokar khushiya mana rhe the or hamari khushiyo ko wo 3 darinde lootkar chakna-chur kar chuke the..
mai jaise-taise haal me pahunchi to mummy kitchen me thi or sheetal apne kamre me.. papa or akhil ka koi pata nahi tha ki wo kahan the? mummy ki najar mujh par padi to wo boli,

mummy- are manisha, aa gayi beta.

mai- ji muuumy!!( mujhe unse baat karne ki himmat nhi ho rhi thi lekin fir b jawab diya)
mummy fir se bol padi
mummy- (mere colorful kapdo ko dekhkar) lagta h aj to khoob masti ki meri beti ne!!

or mujse ye baat bardast nhi huyi.. maine apna face ghuma liya.. aankho me ansoo chalak pade.. bs maine haan me gardan hilayi or apne kamre ki or chal di..
unhe kya pata ki unki sharif or bholi-bhali beti aaj ek lund ke niche letke aayi hai..

mai jaldi se apne room me enter huyi or bed par late gayi or subak-2 kar rone lagi.. mera sab-kuch lut chuka tha.. un kamino ne hamare upar koi reham nhi kiya.. or to or mai sharab bhi….. ye kya ho gaya? subah to sab kuch thik tha.. lekin ab mai wo chij gawa chuki thi jo har ladki uske pati ke liye bacha kar rakhti hai..
or tanu.. tanu bechari ka to mujse bhi bura haal tha.. uske sath to 2-2 ne…… hye ram!!
uske sath kya beet rahi hogi? kaash!! time rehte wo sambhal jati to sayad ye sab na hota lekin ab kya ho sakta tha? un logon ne uske photo b le liye the.. agar unhone kuch aisa-vaisa kar diya to!!
nhi.. nhi wo aisa nhi karenge.. mujhe tanu ko lekar tension ho gayi or us se baat karne ke liye maine apna phone uthaya to usme pani jaane se band tha.. idhar-udhar dekha to paya ki papa ka mobile wahi tha.. maine uska no. dial kiya bt uska phone switch off tha..

maine phone wapas rakha or phir se khayalo me kho gayi..

sari ki sari incidents meri ankho ke samne kisi video ki trah chal rhi thi.. thakawat ki wjah se kab mujhe nind aayi, kuch pata nhi.

manisha beta utho.. dekho kitni raat ho gayi hai.. khana kha lo..
mummy mujhe hila-hilakar uthate huye bol rhi thi.. maine dhire se uthi.. or mummy ko samne khade dekha..

mummy- beta kab se so rahi ho? kapde bhi change nhi kiye aakar.. chalo fresh ho jaao or khana kha lo..

mai- (dhire se) ji, abhi aayi..
mummy bahar chali gayi..

mera khane ka to mood bilkul bhi nhi tha.. but ab kya bahana banati mummy ke samne?
mai bed se khadi huyi to wapas baith gayi.. mujse khada b nhi hua ja raha tha.. taango ki jaan to jaise khatam hi ho chuki thi..

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phir thodi himmat karke deewar ka sahara leti huyi jaise-taise mai bathroom me dakhil ho gayi..

maine ek-ek karke apne kapde utaare to phir se aankho ko aansuo ne bhar diya.. kya halat ho gayi thi sharir ki? jgah-2 laal kaale nishan dikhayi de rahe the.. maine apna hath niche apni yoni pe rakha jahan sabse jyada peeda thi to mujhe halki si soojan feel huyi or dard bhari aah mere muh se nikal gayi..
garam pani ka shower on karke mai uske niche khadi ho gayi.. garam paani mere sharir ko halki si rahat pahuncha raha tha.. nahate-2 saari baate phir se yaad aane lagi or aankho se phir se aansoo chalak pade.. kisi trah se control karke maine shower band kiya or towel se halke hatho se apne sharir ko poncha..
kamij or lower daalkar mai bahar aayi to ghadi me 9:30 ho rahe the.. bahar papa or akhil bhi aa chuke the tab tak..
mujhe phir se tanu ka khayal aaya to maine papa ka mobile liya or phir se dial kiya lekin ab bhi switch off tha.. mujhe thodi tension huyi to maine uske papa ka no. search karke use dial kiya.. bell gayi or band ho gayi.. phone receive nhi hua.. maine dusri baar try kiya to aage se kisi ajnabi ne phone uthaya.. baat shuru huyi..

samne se- hello!!

mai- hello kaun!!

samne se- ji mai sharma ji ka padosi bol raha hu..

mai- ji, mujhe tanu se baat karni h.. mai uski frnd manisha bol rahi hu..

lekin samne se jo usne mujhe bataya to mere muh se cheekh nikal gayi.. mera shir chakraya or niche girkar behosh ho gayi..

jab meri aankhe khuli to mai hospital me bed par leti huyi thi..

hosh me aate hi tanu ka masoom chehra meri aankho ke samne aa gaya or meri aankho se aansoo behne lage..

wo ab is duniya me nahi thi.. usne apne room ke pankhe se latak kar apni jaan de di..
kitni badi bewafa nikli wo ki apne saare dukh mujhe dekar bich raah me saath chhod gayi..
or ye sochte-2 meri aankhe phir se band ho gayi..

jab dubara se hosh aaya to dekha ki mummy mere shir par hath pher rahi thi.. paas me papa, akhil or sheetal bhi the.. wo sab ekdum se meri taraf dekhne lage..
aankho se aansoo lagataar baras rhe the.. mujhe mummy ki awaz sunayi di..

mummy- kaisi hai meri bachi?
wo bhi ro rahi thi..
maine koyi jawab na diya..
or fir se tanu jaise mere samne khadi hokar mujh par hans rahi hai or chidakar kehti hai ki ‘dekha! mai wahi hu jisko tumne kaha tha ki mai wo tanu nhi rahi jo pehle thi, galat raste par chal padi hu, mujhe sharam nhi aati.. lekin ye dekho, mujhe apne kiye pe saram aayi.. lekin tum to badi sharam wali thi. tumhare sath b to wahi hua tha jo mere sath hua.. lekin tumhe sharam nhi aayi.. hai na!! ha..ha..ha..ha’
mujhe phir se mummy ki awaz aayi.
mummy- manisha, beta kaisi ho?
maine us or dekha to sab roye ja rhe the.. maine apni aankhe moond li..

‘aap sab plz. yahan se hat jaiye or patient ko akela chhod dijiye.. dekhiye inke paas koi royega nhi, nhi to kuch bhi ho sakta hai’ doctor ne room me aate huye kaha or sab ke sab bahar chale gaye..
‘nurse! dekhna yahan koi na aaye.. mai inhe ye injection de raha hu or glucose ka dhyan rakhna..’ ye kehte huye doctor bahar chala gaya.. mujhe nind ne gher liya qki sayad doctor ne mujhe jo injection diya tha wo nind ka tha..

meri aankh khuli to wahan koi nhi tha bus kone me ek nurse chair pe soyi huyi thi.. sayad us waqt raat ka time tha.. mai kab se hospital me thi mujhe kuch pata nahi..

mai jitni baar bhi hosh me aayi, tanu baar-2 meri aankho ke aage aa jati.. aankho se aansuo ka sailab lagatar jaari tha..
‘ohh tanu! tu ye kya kar gayi.. waise to tu apne aap ko badi hi bindass manti thi, hansti thi, hansaati thi.. lekin ye kya tum to bilkul chup ho gayi, kaayar kahi ki!!’ mai rote huye jaise usko mere udaaye majaak ka jawab de rahi thi..
‘tune kuch bhi nahi socha kisi ke baare me? tu kya samajhti hai apne aap ko? are kam se kam ek mauka to diya hota mujhe.. bus jo dil me aaya kar diya.. kaisi dost hai re tu? apne aap ko meri sabse achhi dost kehti hai lekin kabhi tune meri baat maani? or akhir me bhi apni hi chalayi na..’ mai subak-2 kar ro rhi thi..
jaise tanu ka hansta hua chehra ekdum se murjha gaya.. uski aankho me bhi ab aansoo the..
‘ didi, mai or kya karti? un kamino ne mere paas iske alawa koyi rasta bhi to nhi chhoda.. mai kya muh dikhati apne bhai, papa or mummy ko.. didi mujhe maaf kar dena.’ wo jaise waha se bahar nikal gayi. maine use pukara lekin wo nhi ruki to mai chilayi..

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mai- tanuuuuuuu!!!!

kya hua beta? shaant ho ja. dekh teri maa tere sath hai.. mujhe mummy ki awaz sunayi di..
wo sab meri awaz sunkar andar aa gye the.
mai thodi si uthi or mummy se lipatkar jor-2 se rone lagi..
mai- mummy, ye kya ho gaya?

mummy- na bete! chup ho ja. hume b tanu ke jaane ka dukh hai.. meri bahadur beti! ab rona nahi..
doctor ne kaha hai ki kal subah tumhe chhuti mil jayegi.. ab so ja jaldi..
phir nurse ne mujhe enjection diya or mai nind ke aagosh me chali gayi

agle din mai ghar aa gayi.. mujhe pata chala ki mai do din se hospital me thi.. tanu ki yaad me mai ab bhi aansoo bahaye ja rahi thi.. uska chehra baar-2 meri aankho ke aage aa raha tha..
meri condition dekhkar kisi ne kuch nhi pucha mujse us din ke baare me..

isi trah 2 din or beet gaye.. ab mai kuch halka feel kar rahi thi.. kisi ko kuch nhi pata ki tanu jaisi ladki ne aisa q kiya? sabhi jante the ki wo us din mere sath thi to jahir tha mai hi bata sakti thi ki aisa kya hua tha?
main khana to kha hi nhi rahi thi bus thoda bahut chai milk le leti thi.. isiliye sharir me kamjori si aa gayi thi.. sara din bistar par padi rehti or aankho se aansoo girte rehte.. mujhe jagjeet ki ek gazal yaad aayi..

“chithhi na koi sandesh..
jaane wo kaun sa desh..
jahan tum chale gaye…”

“ek aah bhari hogi..
humne na suni hogi..
jaate-2 tumne awaz to di hogi…”

2-3 din baad jab mai chup-chap apne bed par baithi huyi thi to mummy mere paas aakar baith gayi or mere shir par hath pherti huyi boli..

mummy- manisha beta! tere papa tanu ke ghar gaye the . unka to bahut bura haal tha beta.. kisi ko kuch pata nhi ki ye sab kaise hua? ab tu us din tanu ke sath thi to kya din me kuch aisa vaisa huwa tha?
ye sunkar main mummy ke gale lagkar rone lagi..
mummy ne mujhe samjhakar chup karwaya or pucha..

mummy- kya baat hai beta? ghabra mat, chup ho ja..
mai ab shaant huyi or maine tanu ki dinesh se dosti se lekar holi wale din ki incident tak sab kuch mummy ko bata diya..
mummy ka muh khula ka khula reh gaya or unki aankhe bhar aayi.. wo rote huye boli..

mummy- he bhagwan! itna kuch saha meri bachiyo ne.. beta tune usi din q nhi bataya sab?

mai- mummy mai dar gayi thi us din.. bata nahi payi or agar ye sab na hota to mai sayad kabhi na batati..
hum dono hi roye ja rahe the..
mummy- ye kya anarth ho gaya? un jaalimo ko thodi si bhi daya nhi aayi? bhagwan unhe kabhi maaf nhi karega..

shaam ko papa tanu ke ghar se aaye to mummy ne unhe sab bata diya..
papa mere paas aaye lekin mai unhe face karne se dar rahi thi..
lekin papa ne mujhe bade hi pyar se baat ki us baare me..
ye baat bataane se mera kuch bojh halka hua.. lekin tanu ab bhi itni hi yaad aa rahi thi.. maine tablets li to mujhe nind aa gayi..

shaam ko jab meri papa or mummy se baat huyi to unhone mujhe samjhaya..

papa- ye baat pata chalne par hum hi jante hai ki hmare dil par kya beet rahi hai? lekin jo hua so hua, mai 1-2 din me tanu ke papa se baat karunga, abhi wo koi baat karne ki condition me nahi hai or un kamino ka to bahut bura haal hoga..
ye sochkar mujhe thoda achha laga ki unko unke kiye ki saja milegi.. but fir bhi dil me kahi na kahi ek anjana sa dar b tha..

1 april ko papa tanu ke ghar gaye unse baat karne..

tanu ko gaye huye 1 month ho chuka tha.. maine rona to chhod diya tha magar uski yaad jyon ki tyon bani huyi thi.. is dauran mai kabhi ghar se nhi nikli.. sabhi ne bahut samjhaya ki mujhe thoda- bahut ghoom phir lena chahiye but mai mana kar deti..

jab tanu ke papa ko pata chala tha ki unki beti ne kis wjah se suicide ki thi to wo 2-3 din hospital me admit rahe or baad me sabhi ne ye faisla kiya ki koyi kuch nahi bolega.. papa to case karna chahte the lekin tanu ke gharwalon ke kehne par wo bhi shaant ho gaye.. na koyi case huwa na complaint bus sabne badnami ke dar se chuppi saadh li aur sab ke liye tanu beete kal ki baat ho gayi..