Main bhi ek aam ladki jiski aam si saheliya aur aam si zindagi thi. Maine B.A private kiya hai aur main English me acchi nahi hoon.

Meri zindagi me main apne shauhar,devar, sasur aur bhai se sambandh bana chuki hoon. Is baat par yakeen karna bada mushkil hai lekin yahi meri zindagi hai. Main to sirf apne shauhar ko hi apna jism dena chahti thi lekin kudrat ke khel me fans kar haar kar reh gayi.
Aaj jab main peeche dekhti hoon to sirf takleef ke kuch aur nahi paati. Rona meri kismat aur lutna meri kismat ki lakeer ban gayi hai.
Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe sab mere sasural wale mujhe dekhne aaye the.
Laalchi log lekin baato se shareef.
Main apne maa baap ki eklauti ladki hoon aur apne bade bhai se choti hoon.
Ye baat kareeb ek saal pehle ki hai, mere imtehaan ka result aa chuka tha. Maine B.A. pass kar liya tha, ghar me sab ne rahat ki saans li. Aisa nahi tha ki meri padhai par jyada kharcha ho raha tha lekin ladkiyo ki padhai se faiyda hi kya hota hai.
Main khush thi.
Meri maa mujhe padhane ke liye bilkul raazi na thi. Maine bhi jyada zidd nahi ki.
Maa meri shadi ke liye baba ko roz kehne lagi,mere bhi armaan the ki main kuch ban jaun lekin phir main khamosh ho gayi.
Phir ek din aisa aaya jab mujhe dekhne ke liye ladke waale aane waale the. Main thoda ghabra si gayi, maa to mujhse bhi jyada ghabrai huyi thi. Mere pahenne ke liye koi naye kapde bhi na tha. Maine apni khaala zad bahen jo meri hi umar aur mere hi deel daul ki thi usse kapse liye. Meri khaala jo mujhse kai makaan door rahti thi ghar par aa gayi. Unka naam Hina hai. Meri maa Hayaat unko bahut maanti hain. Khala Hina paise ke maamle me humse thoda behtar hain. Unke shauhar Dilshad ki Cement ki agency hai. Meri khala ne meri maa se kaha ki mujhse kasbe ke beauty parlor bhej dein taaki main khoobsurat lagoon. Subah ke 9 hi baje the. Meri maa ne mujhe mere bhai ke sath kasbe ke eklaute beuaty parlor bhej diya. Main pahli baar beauty parlor gayi thi. Wahan par pehle se hi do ladkiya theen jinke chehre par kuch laga hua tha. Main andar dhakhil huyi to, beauty parlor ki ladkiya mujhe dekhe lagi. Unhone mujhe sar se pair tak dekha aur unke chehre par ek hasi si aa gayi. Shayad wo mujhpar aur meri gareebi par hans rahi thi. Ek ladki jo lambi si thi usne mujhe poocha kya karwana hai? kya shaadi ke liye taiyyar hona hai? maine kaha ki nahi ladke wale dekhne aa rahe hain. Meri is baar par wo do ladkiya wo pehle hi se khursi par baithi theen khilkhila kar hans padi. Main sharmsaar si ho gayi. Jaane kyun hum lower middle class ke log har baat par sharminda ho jaate hain.Chahe hamari galti ho ya na ho. Ye ameer log aur rutbe waale agar koi baat zor se kahein to hum unki baat maan lete hain. Hamara mulk chahe ghulami se azaad ho gaya ho lekin hum apni ghareebi se abhi tak azaad nahi huye.
Mujhe kone me pade ek sofe bar baith kar intezar karna ka isaara kiya gaya. Kuch der baad ek aur ladki parlor me dakhil huyi. Mujhse ek khaali padi khursi par baitne ko kaha gaya. Us ladki ne mujhse wahi sawaal kiya hi tha ki pehle se maujood do ladkiyo me se ek ne kaha ki madam ko ladke wale dekhne aa rahe hain lekin is baat par is ladki ho hasi nahi aayi. Wo tunak kar boli ki in “logo ne ladkiyo ko bazar me saji huyi ek cheez samajh rakha hai”.
Phir wo shuri ho gayi meri chehre,gardan,pair ke nakhoon, haant ke nakhoon, palko aur na jane kya kya. Mujhe ehsaas hi nahi tha ki ye sab bhi hota hai.
Khair kaafi time baad unhone mujhe 850 rupees mainge, jo maine apne bhai Aarif jo bahar khada tha ussse le kar parlor wali ladkiyo ko de diye