Ab muze neend aani mushkil thi. Aakhe band karna bhi dushwaar ho gaya tha. Jo hi main aakhe band karta to Neha ka chehra mere saamne aa jaata. Aur wo maine nahi samaz pa raha tha ki aisa aakhir ho kyu raha hain? Hum dono ko alag hue ab almost 5 months ho chuke the. To phir ye sapne ka kya matlab tha? aur ye aaj kyu aaya? Main in sab baato ke baare me sochne laga. Muze aisa mehsoos hone laga tha ki Mera aur Neha ka break up meri hi galti ki wajah se hua. Kehte hain jo hume sapno me dikhayi padta hian wo asal me hamare hi dimag me kahi kisi kone me chupa hota hain,jise medical term me 'subconcious mind' kehte hain. To kya ye sapna bhi bas mere hi dimag ki upaj hain ya kahi,deep-down mere dil me main Neha ke liye guilty feel karta hu? Kahi maine to use nahi ccod diya? Mera dil ye sawal baar baar puch raha tha. Magar dimag apne logic se kaam kar raha tha ki nahi, Cchoda Neha ne muze tha. Soyi wo thi mere dost ke saath. Duniya me mere sabse acche dost ke saath. ! Unn dono ne muze dhoka diya tha. Jinhe main apni jaan se bhi badhkar maanta tha aise do logo ne milke mera dil toda tha. There is no fucking reason that I have to feel guilty abt that. NO!!
Main apne andar chal rahi iss kashmakash se ladh raha tha. Taaki kisi tarah se muze shanti mile, main chain se so saku. Magar aaj ye possible nahi tha. Maine table par rakhe mobile me time dekha. 5:04 am. Abhi din shuru hi ho raha tha. Maine socha ki ab neend nahi ane waali to chalke running ko hi jaakar aata hu. Jism thak jaayga to ho sakta hain ki neend aa jaaye. Aisi umeed lekar main bed par se utha. Main jaanta tha ki aaj din bhar mera mood accha nahi rehne waala. To jitna kam ho sake dusre logo ke contact me aauga aur zyada tar apne hi room me rahuga aaj ke din. Main brush karne ke liye apne bedroom se baahar nikla. Jaate hue main Akanksha ke room ke saamne se pass hua. Dekha to uske room ki light ON thi. Muze laga ki agar ye jaagi hui hain aur agar isne muze dekh liya to subh subh dimag khaane lagegi. Isliye main dabe paav room se nikal kar sidha bathroom me gaya. Brush kiya, fresh hua aur room me se shoes utha kar,tshirt pehnte hue main door se baahar nikal gaya.
Subh subh taaza aur thandi hawa beh rahi thi. Maine socha ki kamse kam hawa aaj bhi sukun deti hain. Main dheere dheere running karne laga. Mere dimag me ab bhi wo sapna hi ghum raha tha. Main nahi jaanta tha ki jo kuch bhi ho raha hain wo sab kyu ho raha hain? Magar main itna zaroor jaanta tha ki maine kisi ko dhoka nahi diya aur na hi kisi ka dil kabhi dukhaya hain. Main ab tak apni ghar se almost 100 m ke distance pe aa gaya tha. Mere kadam jaise jaise raftaar pakad rahe the,mere khayaalo ki raftaar bhi badh rahi thi. Main raste par bhaag aage zaroor raha tha ki magar mere zehan me main waqt me peeche peeche jaa raha tha. Jaise main koyi movie ka scene dekh raha hu uss tarah se mere aakho ke saamne wo waakiyaa aa raha tha. Mera dhyaan raste par bilkul bhi nahi tha. Main bas bhaagte jaa raha tha. Aaj bhi muze yaad tha wo din. Wo manhoos din.
Main har roz ki tarah subh 8 baje uth kar ready hokar college jaane ke liye nikla. Jo hi maine bike start ki utne me Neha me muze ek call aaya;
Me: Hello?
"Hello! Samrat!"
Main zat se awaaz pehchaan gaya ki ye Neha ka call tha.
Me: Hey Sunshine..!Morning! Kya baat hain? aaj to subh subh hamare pyaar ko hamari yaad aa gayi? Bada accha jaane waala hain lagta hain din mera aaj.
Huhh! Sochta hu ki pata nahi kya soch kar maine wo shabd kahe the uss din.
Neha: Good Morning Samrat! Kaha hain abhi?
Neha ki awaaz zara dabi dabi si lag rahi thi. Muze laga shaayad subh subh hone ki wajah se madam abhi tak uthi nahi hain. Isliye aisi awaaz aa rahi hogi. Maine zyada dhyaan nahi diya.
Me: Main to abhi ghar se nikal raha hu. 20 min me practical hain. To jaldi se bhaag raha hu. tum abhi tak nahi ready hui? aaj college nahi tumhara?
Neha aur main alag alag college me the. Main engineering kar raha hu aur wo medical. Perfect combo. Doctor-Engineer! Ya atleast muze aisa lagta tha.
Me: Kuch kahogi? Aaj subh hi call kiya? mood kya hain?
Maine use cchedte hue hi kaha!
Neha: Ummm.. tum aaj college nahi gaye to chalega kya? muze milna tha, kuch zaroori baat karni hai.
Me: Kyu? kya hua Neha? Kaho naa.
Main bike start karke aage chalne laga. Already late ho chuka tha main isliye main bike chalate hue hi usse baat karne laga.
Neha: Nahi! Aise nahi. Milkar baat karni hain.
Muze kuch samaz nahi aa raha tha.
Me: Ptchh..ohho Shona. Kaho bhi! Aaj mera college jaana bohot zaroori hain. aaj mere project ka prsentation hain na! Aaj nahi jauga to maar khauga phir.
Kuch waqt tak muze Neha ki awaaz nahi aayi. aur phir;
Neha: Samrat, muze zaroorat hain tumhari. Please aa jao.
Ab muze tension aa raha tha.
Me: arre Neha, but batao to hua kya hain? Tum wajah bata nahi rahi aur baar baar milne ko keh rahi ho. Chalo thik hain! Main milne aa bhi jaata magar abhi important kaam hain muze. 1 baje ke baad hi free houga na Neha.
Neha: Kya koi wajah hona zaroori hain kya? Main milna chahti hu ye kya sufficient nahi hain ab tumhare liye Samrat?
Neha ki ghusse se bhari awaaz muze saaf sunai de rahi thi. Main samaz nahi paa raha tha ki ye sab ho kya raha hain aur subh subh Neha kyu bula rahi hain milne ke liye?
Me: Tum naraaz kyu ho rahi ho Neha? Its my work, I have to be there and present my project. Kya tum nahi chahti ki main accha score karu? Ye sab kya baate kar rahi ho tum Neha?
Neha: Abhi main bas itna chahti hu ki tum,isi waqt yaha mere saamne aa jao...... PLEASE!!
Neha ke uss "Please" ki aahat aaj tak mere kaan me gunjati hain. Uss ek shabd me bohot bheek thi. Maano Neha ki zindagi fasi ho usme.
Me: Neha? Please batao ki kya hua ha.......
Itna main keh paata utni waqt me muze mere college ke ek frnd ka call aaya;
Me: Neha, main tumhe 2 min me call karta hu. Muze ek urgent call aa raha hain college se. ok?
Neha ne koi jawaab nahi di.
Me: Neha kuch to kaho. oK?
Ab bhi kuch nahi aur isse pehle main aur kuch kehta Neha ne call cut kar diya aur mere frnd ki awaaz muze aane lagi. Main badi nirasha se;
Me: Hello!
"Arre? kaha hain tu? ab tak aaya nahi?"
Me: Ha Payal. bol
Payal: Abbe Bol ke Bacche.. Kab aa raha hain? Tune hi to hume yaha bulaya tha aa jaldi taaki hum presentation ki practise kar sake. Jaldi aa. Main aur Varun dono hain yaha par. We are waiting.
Me: Haa. Aa raha hu. On my way!
Itna keh kar maine call rakh diya aur turant Neha ko call kiya. Buzy! 2-3 baar try kiya, but still busy. Maine haar maanke phone rakh diya aur college ki or nikal pada. College kuch 10-12 km dur hoga mere ghar se. 20 min lagte hain atleast. Main college pahocha aur bike park karke apne department ki or badhne laga. Mere dimag me ab bhi Neha ka hi khayaal aa raha tha ki kya hua use? aisa kyu keh rahi thi? aur aisa kya ho sakta hain ki wo itni tadap rahi thi milne ke liye? In saare sawaalo ke jawab main apne aap me khojne laga ki tabhi;
"Oye hero?? Kitna time laga diya tune? Kabse wait kar rahe hain hum tera? Group leader na hota na beta tu to itna bhaav na deti tuze!"
Uss awaaz se main apni khayaalo ki duniya se baahar nikla.Maine saamne dekha. To Payal khadi thi. Paayal meri 2nd best frnd hain. Sabse pehla mera jigri Varun uske baad Payal. Aur Neha to jaan thi meri. Payal aur meri dosti kuch 1 saal pehle hi hui thi. Magar iss ek saal me hi wo meri bohot acchi dost ban gayi. Payal ka nature bada hi cool tha. Maine aaj tak Payal ko kabhi ghusse me nahi dekha. Ha. Ek baar dekha tha, jab hamare seniors me se ek bande ne uski or kuch ajeeb nazar se dekha tha. Pata nahi kyu aur kya dekha tha. Payal dikhti badi hi pyaari thi. Gora sa chehra. Badi badi kaali aakhe. Khargosh jaise 2 daat thode se aage. Mulyam aur baccho jaise uske gaal the aur bade hi ghane aur bohot hi soft se uske baal. Thode brownish color ke. Kapde bade ajeeb pehna karti thi haalaki wo. Hameha use humne aaj tak ek jeans,sport shoes aur alag alag sweat shirts me hi dekha hain. Dheele se kapde pehanti thi. Zara si dumbo dikhti thi uss wajah se. Ek hi ladki thi wo jise main dil se dost maanta tha. Uske baare me kabhi bhi mere dil me bure khayaal nahi aaye aur naa kabhi aayege.
Me: Huhh? Ha.. sorry traffic tha. to late ho gaya
Payal: Aisa bacchoo?? Traffic hone ki wajah se tera phone kaise buzy aane laga? Sidha sidha bol na kamine, ki Neha ke saath Guftagoo chal rahi thi.
Uske iss sawal ka mere paas jawab nahi tha kyoki main khud hi nahi jaanta tha ki wo sab kya tha jo Neha keh rahi thi. Hum baate karte karte department me stairs par jaake baith gaye.
Me: Haa. uska bhi call aaya tha.
Payal: Oye hoye mere Romeo!
Me: Bass kar yaar!
Payal: ha baba.. Bhadak mat! Chal abhi start karte hain ki kya aur kaise karna hain.
Me: Ya sure. Where is Varun?
Payal: Arre use koi urgent call aa gaya tha. Keh kar gaya ki hum dono continue kare. wo aa jaayega kuch der me.
Me: Shit yaar. Hum teeno ka hona bohot zaroori hain aaj.
Payal: Kyu? Tuze to pura design pata hain na. Tune hi to banaya hain. To agar Varun na bhi ho to kya hua? aur waise bhi aaj sirf presentation hain final demo nahi.
Me: Ha yaar. Maine hi banaya hain. magar wo Embedded circuits to Varun ke hain. Use hi configuration pata hain, muze nahi.
Payal: Yaar ye to gadbad ho gayi. Kamine ne muze aisa kuch nahi bataya.
Me: I'll call him.
Maine Payal se thoda dur hokar Varun ko call lagane laga. Ring jaati rahi magar wo phone nahi utha raha tha. Maine dobara se try kiya. 3 rings jaane ke baad usne call uthaya.
Varun: Hello?
Me: Abbe hello ke bacche bhenchod tu hain kaha? Tu jaanta hain na ki aaj presenation hain hamara? Aur tu hain kaha par? Aakar waapis gaya.
Varun: Ummm..wo.. wo..Samarat..wo..
Me: Abe chodu aage to bol kuch. wo wo.. kya laga rakha.? jaldi aa. 5 min me.
Varun: Thik hain. Aata hu.
Itna keh kar usne phone rakh diya.
Payal: Kya bola?
Me: Aa raha hain. Saala ye Varun na. Kabhi nahi sudhrega. Zaroor kisi ladki ke chakkar me hoga saala. Aane de use. Dekhege kamine ko.
Payal: Ha ha. Thik hain.Ab tu relax kar nd lets focus on the presentation. Maine saare Microprocessor nd IC's check kar liye hain. All done.
Me: Good! Code to kal tak thik chal raha to expect karta hu ki aaj code execute ho jaaye. Bass Ye varun aa jaaye. Presentation 15 min start hoga. Sun! hum seedha classroom me jaate. setup karte. Tab tak tuze fresh hona hain to hoja nd lets meet in 10 min.OK?
Payal:Cool!
Payal ne ek aakh sharaarati andaaz me maarte hue kaha.
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Main boys toilet me ghus gaya. Suprisingly aaj khaali hi tha. Maine socha ki presentation start hone se pehle ek baar to Neha se baat karlu. Nahi to tab tak mera dil nahi lagega. Maine apna phone nikala aur Neha ko call kiya;
'The number you are calling is switched off. Please try after sometime.'
Maine dobara se use call kiya. Again the same message. Muze ab tension aane laga tha. Main toilet me ke basin me apna face wash kiya aur saamne ke mirror me dekha. Pareshaani meri aakho me saaf dikh rahi thi. Main samaz nahi paa raha tha ki aaj aakhir Neha ko hua kya hain? Maine 1 baar aur face wash kiya. Haath poch kar main toilet se baahar nikla ki tabhi mera mobile vibrate hua. Meri to maano jaan me jaan aa gayi. Mobile unlock kiya to dekha ki Payal ka message aaya th.
"Come to the lab right now. Joshi Sir bula rahe hain"
Main maayus ho gaya. Apna mobile maine silent mode par daal diya aur Lab ki or chalne laga. Jaise jaise mere kadam aage badh rahe the,waise waise mere dil me kayi saare khayaal aa rahe the. Finally main Lab ke entrance tak pahuch gaya. Andar jaane se pehle maine ek baar phir mobile check kiya. Nothing. Maine ek gehri saans li aur la me enter ho gaya. Lab me dekha to 3 teachers already pohoch gaye the aur kuch discussion kar rahe the. Maine politely unhe good morning kaha aur Lab ke end me rakhe hue table ke paas chala gaya. Dekha to Payal already waha wait kar rahi thi. Maine table par nazar daali. Mere pichle 3 months ki mehnat waha par rakhi hui thi. Mera project. Pure class me ek hamara hi group tha jisne actual real time based project banaya tha. I was very proud of my design. kayi ghanto ki mehnat thi usme hum sabki. Basic design se lekar to finishing touch tak maine isse banane me mehnat ki thi. Maine Payal ki or dekha. Wo muskura rahi thi meri or dekh kar.
Payal: Beta! Ab bas nihaarta hi rahega ise ya start kare?
Me: Ha ha. Kyu nahi? Wait a min! Varun kaha hain?
Payal: Wo aaya nahi ab tak.
Me: kya?? Fuckk..
Maine kuch zyada hi zor se 'fuck' keh diya.Itni zor se ki kuch feet par khade lab assistant ko bhi wo sunayi diya. Maine neeche dekhte hue 'sorry' kaha.
Me: Abhi tak kyu nahi aaya wo?
Payal: Yaar muze kya pata? muze badi tension ho rahi hain.
Me: Ab tenstion lekar kya karegi tu? Usse aakhir tune jaane hi kyu di?
Payal: Samrat tu muze par kyu bhadak raha hain? Main uski maa to nahi ki main use mana karugi kahi jaane se. Aur wo keh kar gaya tha ki 10 min me aa jaayega. Use bas call aaya aur wo chala gaya. Meri kya galti hain usme?
Me: Ok.. I am sorry. Mera mood subha se hi.......
Main pura keh paata ki peeche se Joshi sir ne awaaz laga di.
'Samrat?'
Maine peeche dekha aur sir ke saamne jaakar khada ho gaya.
Me: Yes sir?
Joshi: Are you ready for the presentation?
Me: Ummm..yes sir. the project is ready but...
Joshi: But?? But what? are you ready or not?
Me: Yes sir we are. We are just waiting for our third partner Varun.
Joshi: what do you mean by 'waiting'? He should have been here already. Where is he?
Me: I am sorry sir. He came to college but he had to go for 10 min. He will be here at any moment sir.
Hum baat kar rahe the. Utne me hi hamraa conversation Meenal madam ne sun liya. Wo badi hi kamini aurat hain.
Meenal: So you expect us to wait for him to come?
Maine uski awaaz sun kar peeche dekha aur kuch keh paata isse pehle hi wo khud bol padi;
Meenal: This is highly unacceptable. We have came here to see the presentation or ur project and you are not even prepared for it.
Me: No Madam! We are ready. Its just...
Meenal: Just what??
Phir se meri baat katte hue usne kaha.
Me: Varun will be here in 5 min madam. Please! Can you wait for 5 min? I will call him. He will be here for sure.
Joshi: This is not professional Samrat. We cant accept it. You either drop your project or start without him.
Main kuch keh paata utne me hi Payal ne kaha.
Payal: Sir! We will start without him. I am sure that he will be here by the time we begin. We are really sorry, but he had some family emergency so he had to go. Otherwise he was here from 7 am.
Joshi: Ok ok.. You can begin.
Meenal: He better be here!
Samrat: Yes madam. Yes sir. Thank you!
Main uss waqt bohot hi ghusse me tha. Aakhir Varun aisa kaise kar sakta hain. Ab to main lab me se use call bhi nahi kar paa raha tha network na hone ki wajah se. Main main table ke paas gaya aur maine ek lambi saans li, Payal ki or dekha aur kaha;
Me: Lets start!
Main table se zara side me hat kar aage badha aur presentation start kar diya.
Me: Good morning everybody! Thanx for coming here. We are sorry for the delay. My name is Samrat. Payal ki or ishaara karte hue maine kaha; she is Payal and our third partner will be coming here any minute.
Maine ek nazar saamne baithe 3 teachers ki or daali. Jaisa expect kiya tha, Meenal Madam ghusse ka look de rahi thi. Maine uski or dhyaan na dete hue apne project ka presentation start kiya. Ab dosto main aapko bore nahi karna chahta, project ki technical baato se. So, moving on. Maine project ka basic idea aur saari details explain ki, working and configuration. Payal ne bhi apna kaam bakhubi ki. Sab kuch sahi chal raha tha. Perfect! Main kaafi khush tha hamare kaam se. Magar aaj to jaise upar waale ne meri gaand maarne ka hi plan kiya tha. Maine presentation khatm kiya;
Joshi: Excellent work students. Coding is very efficient. Although there are few loop issues. But good work.
Main aur Payal ne saath me thanx kaha aur tabhi;
Meenal: But I am more concerned about the Embedded circuits. I have few questions about it.
Yeh sun kar muze Uss raandi Meenal ka bohot ghussa aaya. Wo jaanti thi ki Varun hi un sawaalo ke jawaab de sakta hain aur wo ab tak nahi aaya tha. Jiss baat ka muze dar tha wohi hua aur Meenal ek ke baad ek complex sawaal puchne lagi hume. Hum jitne jawaab de sakte the humne diye. Magar off course, Sahi jawab hum nahi de paaye.
Me: I am sorry madam. Actually it was Varun who designed these circuits. He has better and detail knowledge of them.
Meenal: So? Are we supposed to consider and allow your incompetance? Excuse?
Meri nazre neeche zuk gayi.
Meenal: Mr. Joshi. I dont think that their project can be considered. I reject their project.
Jo hi maine 'REject' suna mera dil ruk gaya aur meri nazre Meenal ko or dekhne lagi. Wo kutti,chinaal ek badi hi kamini smile se hamari or dekh rahi thi. Ab mere kaan khade the sirf Joshi sir ke jawab ke liye. Main unki or kaafi aas laga kar dekh raha tha. Varun sirf aaj nahi tha. Aisa aage se nahi hoga. Har dhadkan ko main mehsoos kar raha tha. aur aakhir kaar joshi sir ne kaha;
Joshi: Rejected!
Mere jism ka khoon sukh gaya. Meri aakhe apne aap band ho gayi.
Joshi: She is right students. You havent given a proper presenation.
Aur bas itna keh kar wo sab log apni apni chairs se uth kar lab se baahar nikalne ke liye chal pade. Main wahi par zameen ko ghurta hua khada tha. Meri saari mehnat barbaad ho gayi thi. Payal mera left haath pakad kar hila rahi thi ki;
Payal: Samrat! Samrat! Chal jaake sir se maafi mangte hain aur ek aur chance ke liye convince karte hain. chal na.
Wo muze zor zor se hila rahi thi. Magar main andar se haar maan chuka tha. Main jaanta tha ki jab tak Meenal hain, Hume dusra mauka nahi milega. It was Over! All over. Jab main nahi aaya to Payal akele hi Sir se jaakar bheek maangne lagi. Minnate karne lagi. Magar jaisa ki muze pata tha, koi faayda nahi tha. Payal Meenal se baat kar rahi thi aur bheek maang rahi thi ki ek aur mauka de de. Maine Payal ke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha;
Me: Jaane de Payal. Its not worth it. She wont allow us.
Mere ye shabd Meenal ke kaan par pade to wo palat kar mere or badhne lagi. mere saamne aakar usne kaha;
Meenal: Excuse me? What did you say? I will suggest you to work or your attitude Samrat.
Ab main ghusse se bhar gaya tha. Mera bas chalta to kheech kar ek laafa maarta main us chinaal ke muh par magar aisa kar nahi sakta tha.
Me: With all due respect Miss Meenal Madam, I dont think that the college pays you to worry about my attitude. So i dont think that its any of your buisness. Thanx for letting us present our project.You have a good day!
Itna keh kar main aage badh gaya. Iss baar Meenal kuch nahi boli. Maine paayal ka haath pakad kar apna saamaan utha kar Lab se nikal pada. Ab main college attend karne ke mood me nahi tha. Bilkul bhi nahi tha. To hum department se nikal kar seedha college ke ground par chale gaye. Abhi 9:47 hua tha. ground zyada tar khaali hi hota hain. Hum jaakar stairs par baith gaye. Meri saari mehnat barbaad ho gayi. Sirf aur sirf Varun ki wajah se. Aakhir aisa kya ho sakta hain, isse bhi zyada important jo wo iss tarah se gaayab ho gaya. Mere saath aisa kaise kar sakta hain wo. Wo khud bhi jaanta tha ki kitni mehnat ki thi uss project pe maine. THEN WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING? Main apne aap se hi baate karne laga tha. Meri right side me Payal baithi thi;
Payal: Ye sab kya ho gaya Samrat? Aakhir Varun hain kaha par? Tu Abhi use call kar. Main jaan le lugi uss kamine ki. tu call kar use.
Maine koi jawab nahi diya. Payal samaz gayi aur usne khud hi Varun ko call lagayi.
Payal: Ring to jaa rahi hain.
Ab main iss duniya me nahi tha. Apne khayaalo me ghum tha. Subh subh Neha ke saath jo hua, aur ab Varun ne aisa kiya. Ye sab kya ho raha tha?
Payal: Hello? Where the hell are you Varun? You screwed everything.........................what??,.....................Nahi yaar! Aakhir aisa kya ho gaya ki tu hume iss tarah se cchod kar chala gaya?.........................Bahane mat bana Varun. Hamara project reject ho gaya.................Ohh really?? you are sorry? waah.. meri to aakhe bhar aayi...........Ha. Samrat yahi hain. Kaha jaayega? Varun kamse kam uski to sochta.sheee.!!...............Ground par hain... tu abhi isse waqt yaha aa..........aaj to teri jaan hi le lugi main..................Kaun?? kaun hain tere saath?......I dont give a crap! Abhi issi waqt yaha aa...
Maine sab suna magar dhyaan nahi diya.
Payal: Aa raha hain.
Payal ne mere kandhe par haath rakhi aur boli;
Payal: Cheer up yaar! Itna sad mat ho. We will figure out something abt the project. Muze pata hain tu kuch Karega. I turst you. Abhi to tu sirf Varun ki jaan lene ke baare me.................
Payal ye sab kahe jaa rahi thi. Magar mere dil me toofaan chal raha tha. Sirf project hi nahi. Muze Neha ki yaad aa rahi thi. Muze zaroorat thi uski. Main bas Neha ki baaho me kuch der bitana chahta tha. Uski baaho me hota hu to duniya se dar nahi lagta, sab sahi lagta hain. Uske jism ki khooshbu bada sukun deti hain muze. Uske soft soft haatho ko pakadta hu to muze ye ehsaas hota hain ki mere haath kisi bhi musibat se bheedne ke liye ready hain. Uski aakho me dekhta hu to lagta hain ki poori zindagi in aakho me dekhte hue hi bita du. Chahe mera mood kitna bhi bura kyu naa ho, chahe kitni bhi badi musibat kyu naa aa jaaye muzpe Neha ki smile dekhta hu to ek taakat si aa jaati hain andar mere. Abhi muze bas Neha ki zaroorat thi.
Me: Main jaa raha hu. Varun se tu hi baat kar. I am leaving.
Payal: Arre? magar tu kaha jaa raha hain? Varun aata hi hoga yaar.
Maine jaise Payal ki baar suni hi naa ho. Maine ek ek stair utar raha tha. Bhaari kadmo se aage badh raha tha. Main aakhri stair se utarta utne me hi kuch 100 ft par muze Varun hamari or aata dikhayi pada. Aur almost usi waqt muze Neha ka call aaya.
to be contd. plz leave comments ppl. aage story ek kadwa sach hone waali hain
'The number you are calling is switched off. Please try after sometime.'
Maine dobara se use call kiya. Again the same message. Muze ab tension aane laga tha. Main toilet me ke basin me apna face wash kiya aur saamne ke mirror me dekha. Pareshaani meri aakho me saaf dikh rahi thi. Main samaz nahi paa raha tha ki aaj aakhir Neha ko hua kya hain? Maine 1 baar aur face wash kiya. Haath poch kar main toilet se baahar nikla ki tabhi mera mobile vibrate hua. Meri to maano jaan me jaan aa gayi. Mobile unlock kiya to dekha ki Payal ka message aaya th.
"Come to the lab right now. Joshi Sir bula rahe hain"
Main maayus ho gaya. Apna mobile maine silent mode par daal diya aur Lab ki or chalne laga. Jaise jaise mere kadam aage badh rahe the,waise waise mere dil me kayi saare khayaal aa rahe the. Finally main Lab ke entrance tak pahuch gaya. Andar jaane se pehle maine ek baar phir mobile check kiya. Nothing. Maine ek gehri saans li aur la me enter ho gaya. Lab me dekha to 3 teachers already pohoch gaye the aur kuch discussion kar rahe the. Maine politely unhe good morning kaha aur Lab ke end me rakhe hue table ke paas chala gaya. Dekha to Payal already waha wait kar rahi thi. Maine table par nazar daali. Mere pichle 3 months ki mehnat waha par rakhi hui thi. Mera project. Pure class me ek hamara hi group tha jisne actual real time based project banaya tha. I was very proud of my design. kayi ghanto ki mehnat thi usme hum sabki. Basic design se lekar to finishing touch tak maine isse banane me mehnat ki thi. Maine Payal ki or dekha. Wo muskura rahi thi meri or dekh kar.
Payal: Beta! Ab bas nihaarta hi rahega ise ya start kare?
Me: Ha ha. Kyu nahi? Wait a min! Varun kaha hain?
Payal: Wo aaya nahi ab tak.
Me: kya?? Fuckk..
Maine kuch zyada hi zor se 'fuck' keh diya.Itni zor se ki kuch feet par khade lab assistant ko bhi wo sunayi diya. Maine neeche dekhte hue 'sorry' kaha.
Me: Abhi tak kyu nahi aaya wo?
Payal: Yaar muze kya pata? muze badi tension ho rahi hain.
Me: Ab tenstion lekar kya karegi tu? Usse aakhir tune jaane hi kyu di?
Payal: Samrat tu muze par kyu bhadak raha hain? Main uski maa to nahi ki main use mana karugi kahi jaane se. Aur wo keh kar gaya tha ki 10 min me aa jaayega. Use bas call aaya aur wo chala gaya. Meri kya galti hain usme?
Me: Ok.. I am sorry. Mera mood subha se hi.......
Main pura keh paata ki peeche se Joshi sir ne awaaz laga di.
'Samrat?'
Maine peeche dekha aur sir ke saamne jaakar khada ho gaya.
Me: Yes sir?
Joshi: Are you ready for the presentation?
Me: Ummm..yes sir. the project is ready but...
Joshi: But?? But what? are you ready or not?
Me: Yes sir we are. We are just waiting for our third partner Varun.
Joshi: what do you mean by 'waiting'? He should have been here already. Where is he?
Me: I am sorry sir. He came to college but he had to go for 10 min. He will be here at any moment sir.
Hum baat kar rahe the. Utne me hi hamraa conversation Meenal madam ne sun liya. Wo badi hi kamini aurat hain.
Meenal: So you expect us to wait for him to come?
Maine uski awaaz sun kar peeche dekha aur kuch keh paata isse pehle hi wo khud bol padi;
Meenal: This is highly unacceptable. We have came here to see the presentation or ur project and you are not even prepared for it.
Me: No Madam! We are ready. Its just...
Meenal: Just what??
Phir se meri baat katte hue usne kaha.
Me: Varun will be here in 5 min madam. Please! Can you wait for 5 min? I will call him. He will be here for sure.
Joshi: This is not professional Samrat. We cant accept it. You either drop your project or start without him.
Main kuch keh paata utne me hi Payal ne kaha.
Payal: Sir! We will start without him. I am sure that he will be here by the time we begin. We are really sorry, but he had some family emergency so he had to go. Otherwise he was here from 7 am.
Joshi: Ok ok.. You can begin.
Meenal: He better be here!
Samrat: Yes madam. Yes sir. Thank you!
Main uss waqt bohot hi ghusse me tha. Aakhir Varun aisa kaise kar sakta hain. Ab to main lab me se use call bhi nahi kar paa raha tha network na hone ki wajah se. Main main table ke paas gaya aur maine ek lambi saans li, Payal ki or dekha aur kaha;
Me: Lets start!
Main table se zara side me hat kar aage badha aur presentation start kar diya.
Me: Good morning everybody! Thanx for coming here. We are sorry for the delay. My name is Samrat. Payal ki or ishaara karte hue maine kaha; she is Payal and our third partner will be coming here any minute.
Maine ek nazar saamne baithe 3 teachers ki or daali. Jaisa expect kiya tha, Meenal Madam ghusse ka look de rahi thi. Maine uski or dhyaan na dete hue apne project ka presentation start kiya. Ab dosto main aapko bore nahi karna chahta, project ki technical baato se. So, moving on. Maine project ka basic idea aur saari details explain ki, working and configuration. Payal ne bhi apna kaam bakhubi ki. Sab kuch sahi chal raha tha. Perfect! Main kaafi khush tha hamare kaam se. Magar aaj to jaise upar waale ne meri gaand maarne ka hi plan kiya tha. Maine presentation khatm kiya;
Joshi: Excellent work students. Coding is very efficient. Although there are few loop issues. But good work.
Main aur Payal ne saath me thanx kaha aur tabhi;
Meenal: But I am more concerned about the Embedded circuits. I have few questions about it.
Yeh sun kar muze Uss raandi Meenal ka bohot ghussa aaya. Wo jaanti thi ki Varun hi un sawaalo ke jawaab de sakta hain aur wo ab tak nahi aaya tha. Jiss baat ka muze dar tha wohi hua aur Meenal ek ke baad ek complex sawaal puchne lagi hume. Hum jitne jawaab de sakte the humne diye. Magar off course, Sahi jawab hum nahi de paaye.
Me: I am sorry madam. Actually it was Varun who designed these circuits. He has better and detail knowledge of them.
Meenal: So? Are we supposed to consider and allow your incompetance? Excuse?
Meri nazre neeche zuk gayi.
Meenal: Mr. Joshi. I dont think that their project can be considered. I reject their project.
Jo hi maine 'REject' suna mera dil ruk gaya aur meri nazre Meenal ko or dekhne lagi. Wo kutti,chinaal ek badi hi kamini smile se hamari or dekh rahi thi. Ab mere kaan khade the sirf Joshi sir ke jawab ke liye. Main unki or kaafi aas laga kar dekh raha tha. Varun sirf aaj nahi tha. Aisa aage se nahi hoga. Har dhadkan ko main mehsoos kar raha tha. aur aakhir kaar joshi sir ne kaha;
Joshi: Rejected!
Mere jism ka khoon sukh gaya. Meri aakhe apne aap band ho gayi.
Joshi: She is right students. You havent given a proper presenation.
Aur bas itna keh kar wo sab log apni apni chairs se uth kar lab se baahar nikalne ke liye chal pade. Main wahi par zameen ko ghurta hua khada tha. Meri saari mehnat barbaad ho gayi thi. Payal mera left haath pakad kar hila rahi thi ki;
Payal: Samrat! Samrat! Chal jaake sir se maafi mangte hain aur ek aur chance ke liye convince karte hain. chal na.
Wo muze zor zor se hila rahi thi. Magar main andar se haar maan chuka tha. Main jaanta tha ki jab tak Meenal hain, Hume dusra mauka nahi milega. It was Over! All over. Jab main nahi aaya to Payal akele hi Sir se jaakar bheek maangne lagi. Minnate karne lagi. Magar jaisa ki muze pata tha, koi faayda nahi tha. Payal Meenal se baat kar rahi thi aur bheek maang rahi thi ki ek aur mauka de de. Maine Payal ke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha;
Me: Jaane de Payal. Its not worth it. She wont allow us.
Mere ye shabd Meenal ke kaan par pade to wo palat kar mere or badhne lagi. mere saamne aakar usne kaha;
Meenal: Excuse me? What did you say? I will suggest you to work or your attitude Samrat.
Ab main ghusse se bhar gaya tha. Mera bas chalta to kheech kar ek laafa maarta main us chinaal ke muh par magar aisa kar nahi sakta tha.
Me: With all due respect Miss Meenal Madam, I dont think that the college pays you to worry about my attitude. So i dont think that its any of your buisness. Thanx for letting us present our project.You have a good day!
Itna keh kar main aage badh gaya. Iss baar Meenal kuch nahi boli. Maine paayal ka haath pakad kar apna saamaan utha kar Lab se nikal pada. Ab main college attend karne ke mood me nahi tha. Bilkul bhi nahi tha. To hum department se nikal kar seedha college ke ground par chale gaye. Abhi 9:47 hua tha. ground zyada tar khaali hi hota hain. Hum jaakar stairs par baith gaye. Meri saari mehnat barbaad ho gayi. Sirf aur sirf Varun ki wajah se. Aakhir aisa kya ho sakta hain, isse bhi zyada important jo wo iss tarah se gaayab ho gaya. Mere saath aisa kaise kar sakta hain wo. Wo khud bhi jaanta tha ki kitni mehnat ki thi uss project pe maine. THEN WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING? Main apne aap se hi baate karne laga tha. Meri right side me Payal baithi thi;
Payal: Ye sab kya ho gaya Samrat? Aakhir Varun hain kaha par? Tu Abhi use call kar. Main jaan le lugi uss kamine ki. tu call kar use.
Maine koi jawab nahi diya. Payal samaz gayi aur usne khud hi Varun ko call lagayi.
Payal: Ring to jaa rahi hain.
Ab main iss duniya me nahi tha. Apne khayaalo me ghum tha. Subh subh Neha ke saath jo hua, aur ab Varun ne aisa kiya. Ye sab kya ho raha tha?
Payal: Hello? Where the hell are you Varun? You screwed everything.........................what??,.....................Nahi yaar! Aakhir aisa kya ho gaya ki tu hume iss tarah se cchod kar chala gaya?.........................Bahane mat bana Varun. Hamara project reject ho gaya.................Ohh really?? you are sorry? waah.. meri to aakhe bhar aayi...........Ha. Samrat yahi hain. Kaha jaayega? Varun kamse kam uski to sochta.sheee.!!...............Ground par hain... tu abhi isse waqt yaha aa..........aaj to teri jaan hi le lugi main..................Kaun?? kaun hain tere saath?......I dont give a crap! Abhi issi waqt yaha aa...
Maine sab suna magar dhyaan nahi diya.
Payal: Aa raha hain.
Payal ne mere kandhe par haath rakhi aur boli;
Payal: Cheer up yaar! Itna sad mat ho. We will figure out something abt the project. Muze pata hain tu kuch Karega. I turst you. Abhi to tu sirf Varun ki jaan lene ke baare me.................
Payal ye sab kahe jaa rahi thi. Magar mere dil me toofaan chal raha tha. Sirf project hi nahi. Muze Neha ki yaad aa rahi thi. Muze zaroorat thi uski. Main bas Neha ki baaho me kuch der bitana chahta tha. Uski baaho me hota hu to duniya se dar nahi lagta, sab sahi lagta hain. Uske jism ki khooshbu bada sukun deti hain muze. Uske soft soft haatho ko pakadta hu to muze ye ehsaas hota hain ki mere haath kisi bhi musibat se bheedne ke liye ready hain. Uski aakho me dekhta hu to lagta hain ki poori zindagi in aakho me dekhte hue hi bita du. Chahe mera mood kitna bhi bura kyu naa ho, chahe kitni bhi badi musibat kyu naa aa jaaye muzpe Neha ki smile dekhta hu to ek taakat si aa jaati hain andar mere. Abhi muze bas Neha ki zaroorat thi.
Me: Main jaa raha hu. Varun se tu hi baat kar. I am leaving.
Payal: Arre? magar tu kaha jaa raha hain? Varun aata hi hoga yaar.
Maine jaise Payal ki baar suni hi naa ho. Maine ek ek stair utar raha tha. Bhaari kadmo se aage badh raha tha. Main aakhri stair se utarta utne me hi kuch 100 ft par muze Varun hamari or aata dikhayi pada. Aur almost usi waqt muze Neha ka call aaya.
to be contd. plz leave comments ppl. aage story ek kadwa sach hone waali hain
Re: Hindi sex novel - Benaam! The Unnamed Truth
Maine call answer kiya;
Me: Hello! Neha! Thank god tumne call kiya Neha. Tum nahi jaanti muze kitni zaroorat thi tumhari awaaz sunnane ki. Kaha ho tum? Main abhi aa raha hu tumhare paas.
Main ek hi saas me sab kuch keh gaya bina ye soche ki Neha ne kuch suna bhi ya nahi.
Me: Neha?? Meri awaaz aa arhi hain tumhe? tum kuch kehti kyu nahi?
Kuch seconds beet gaye magar Neha kuch nahi boli. Muze laga network me kuch problem hain to;
Me: I think network me problem hain. Ruko. Main tumhe call back karta hu.
Main itna keh kar bas phone apne kaan se hatane hi waala tha ki utne me;
Neha: Hello! Samrat.. I am here.
Maine zat se phone apni kanpatti par dobara laga diya.
Me: Ohh! Kuch kaha kyu nahi phir itni der? Tum ready raho. Main tumhe 20 min me tumhare ghar me se pick up karta hu. I have had a really bad day Neha. I really need you.
Main Varun ko dheere dheere apne nazdik aate dekh raha tha. Mere dil me uske liye jitna ghussa tha wo sab Neha ki bas awaaz bhar se chala gaya tha. Main ab bhi stairs pe hi khada tha.
Neha: Samrat! ummm.. Main ghar par nahi hu!
Me: Ghar par nahi ho? Muze laga ki tumhara college nahi hain aaj. Tum ghar nahi hoto kaha ho?
Neha: Main aaj college nahi gayi. Not atleast apne college.
Me: Kya matlab Neha? Kisi friend ke saath ho kya? Tum kaho to main tumhe wahi se pick up kar leta hu.
Neha: Nahi Samrat. Muze tumse kuch baat karni thi. Isiliye call ki maine.
Me: Ha to mil kar baat karte hain naa. Tum hi to such Keh rahi thi na ki milna hain. I need to see you Neha. Main abhi bohot udas hu. Its like the worst day of my life. Tumse miluga to accha lagega.
Muze Neha ki saaso ki awaaz aane lagi. Main mehsoos kar paa raha tha ki Neha bohot gehri saanse le rahi hain.
Me: Neha? tumhari tabiyat to thik hain naa? Tum kuch zyada hi heavily breath kar rahi ho? Kya hua?
Neha: Samrat!!?
Main ab zara pareshaan hone laga tha.
Me: Ha kaho na!!
Neha ne ek gehri aur lambi saans li aur;
Neha: Samrat main iss waqt tumhare hi college me hu.
Me: Kyaa?? Mere college me? tum yaha kya kar rahi ho? Aur ho kaha tum? abhi aata hu milne tumhe.
Itni der me Varun bhi aa gaya tha. Wo mere saamne khada tha. Kuch 3-4 feet ki doori par. Maine uski or dekh kar use ek finger dikhaya. Main ab bhi naraaz tha uspar.
Neha: Main yahi hu Samrat!!
Me: Yahi?? Kaha par?
Maine ground pe dekhne laga. Kahi koi nahi dikhayi pada. Bilkul sunsaan tha.
Me: Muze to koi nahi dikhayi de raha! Kyu mazak kar rahi ho Neha?
Neha: Nahi Samrat. Main mazak nahi kar rahi. Main yahi hu, ground pe. Just turn around!
Neha ke wo shabd sunte hi main peeche mud gaya aur saamne dekha to Neha kuch 10-15 sidhiya upar khadi thi. Maine Neha ki or dekha. Waaah! Maine upar waale ko shukriya karte hua socha ki itna sundar koi kabhi ho sakta hain kya? Neha ne ek sky blue color ka Kurta aur neeche white color ki salwar pehan rakhi thi. Neha khaas mere kehne par apne baalo ko kabhi bandhati nahi thi. Kyoki wo apne khule baalo me bohot hi sundar dikhti thi. Uske ghane kaale baal. Uska dudh jaisa gora rang aur duniya me sabsi gehri aakhe maine kisi ki dekhi ho to wo Neha ki hi thi. Bilkul kaali raat se bhi kaali aur kisi mahasagar se bhi gehri. Bachpan se sports team me hone ki wajah se Neha ka jism bada hi kasa hua tha. Aur wo sleeveless kurta uske jism ko bakhubi jach raha tha. Uske gore gore haath jinpe baalo ka naamo-nishaan nahi tha. Neha kabhi nail paint nahi lagati thi aur naa hi maine kabhi use make-up karte dekha hain. Zyada se zyada talc ya sunscreen. Zaroorat hi nahi thi use. Meri Neha duniya me sabse sundar nahi thi ye main hamesha se jaanta tha! Actually Payal ka chehra Neha se thoda zyada komal tha. Magar main itna zaroor jaanta tha ki meri duniya me Neha se khubsoorat aur koi cheez nahi thi. Jiss din maine Neha ko paaya uss din ke baad muze aur kisi cheez ke liye tadap nahi rahi. Uski saadgi, uski muskaan aur sabse kimati;uska dil!
Jo hi maine Neha ko dekha mere chehre pe apne aap muskaan aa gayi. Call ab bhi shuru tha. Maine Neha se kaha;
Me: Waah! Aaj kasam khayi hain kya ki college ke har ladke ko mera dushman bana dogi. kyoki jise main dekh raha hu uss ladki se sundar to koi nahi ho sakti.
Neha ne kuch nahi kaha. Wo mere taraf dekhe jaa rahi thi. Main jaldi se sidhiya chadhne laga aur achanak;
Neha: Nahi..Ruko Samrat.
Mere kadam maano jam se gaye the. Main usi pal ruk gaya.
Me: Kyu?kya hua Neha?
Neha ne apne baaye haath se rukne ka ishara kiya aur kehne lagi;
Neha: Kya tum muzse pyaar karte ho Samrat?
Me: Ye kaisa sawal hain Neha?
Neha: Jawab do Samrat. Kya tum muzse pyaar karte ho?
Me: What non-sense is this Neha? Tum jaanti ho ki main tumse pyaar karta hu. Ye tumhe ho kya gaya hain aaj?
Maine Neha ki or dekha aur ek sidhi upar chadhne laga,tabhi;
Neha: Wahi par ruko!
Maine ruk gaya aur sawaaliya nazro se main Neha ki or dekhne laga. Ab tak Varun theek peeche khada tha. Payal bhi nahi samaz paa rahi thi ki ho kya raha hain?
Neha: Kitna pyaar karte ho tum muzse?
Neha ke ye sawal muze bada ajeeb laga. Main nahi jaanta tha ki koi kisi ko ek matra me bhi pyaar kar sakta hain. Shaayad 10 kg,15 kg. Pata nahi!
Me: Kya matlab? Neha I am coming there.
Itna keh kar main aage badhne hi waala tha ki;
Neha: Nahi Samrat!! Agar tum aage badhe to main yaha se chali jaugi. Main bohot himmat karke aayi hu yaha pe. Please!
Main ruk gaya.
Neha: To? Jawab do!
Me: Main tumse itna pyaar karta hu ki agar tum iss waqt jaan ke alawa kuch bhi maang lo to main de du, tumhe saari zindagi khush rakhu aur jab tak tum khush rehna chaho tab tak main zinda rahu.
Maine ye kehte hue Neha ki aakho me dekha. Aur phone par muze ek siski sunayi padi.
Me: Neha? Neha!? TUm ro rahi ho? Kya baar hain Neha?
Main pagal sa ho raha tha. Neha mere saamne khadi thi magar main usko chu nahi paa raha tha. Muze ehsaas hua ki Varun mere peeche khada tha. Mera sabse accha dost. Mera jigri. Maine varun se kaha;
Me: Varun! Varun! Dekh na yaar ye Neha ko pata nahi kya hua hain? ajeeb si baate kar rahi hain. Aur..aur...ab to ro bhi rahi hain. Jaa! Jaake samza teri bhabhi ko yaar. Muze nahi aane de rahi wo.
Maine varun se ye sab ek saans me ho keh diya aur main Neha ko dekhne laga. Kuch seconds ke baad muze ehsaas hua ki Varun putle ki tarah usi jagah par khada tha. Main peeche muda aur Varun se kaha;
Me: Saale dekh kya raha hain? jaa jaakr Use mana. teri bhabhi ko sa............
Main aage kuch aur keh paata utne me hi Varun bola;
Varun: Kaun bhabhi Samrat?
Main Varun ke is sawal se zara cheedh gaya.
Me: Kamine! Abhi subh se Neha ajeeb baate kar rahi hain aur ab tu bhi.. Neha ki baat kar raha hu. Main kya kisi aur se pyaar karta hu kya? tu jaanta hain ki ek hi bhabhi hain teri. Jaa jaldi.
Itna Keh kar main phir se Neha ko dekhne laga.
Me: Neha. I am coming there. Wahi ruko aur tum rona band karo please!
Itna keh kar maine call disconnect kar diya aur jo hi sidhiya chadhne ke liye maine kadam uthaya;
Varun: Main jaanta hu ki tu ek hi ladki se pyaar karta hain Samrat. Magar ab wo meri bhabhi nahi rahi.
Aaj bhi Varun ke wo shabd mere dil me chubhte hain. Aur har chubhan ke saath mere dil me se jaan nikalti jaati hain. Varun ne jo kaha wo sun kar main sakpaka gaya aur turant main mud kar Varun ke saamne chala gaya.
Me: Kya?? Kya kaha tune? Phir se bol saale! Bakwaas na kar. Aaj teri hi wajah se hamari gaand lag gayi aur ab tu aisi baate kar raha hain? Kya matlab wo teri bhabhi nahi rahi?
Main ab bohot ghussa ho gaya tha Varun pe.
Varun: Wahi kaha jo tune suna Samrat. Tu janna chahta tha na ki main college aakar waapis kaha chala gaya? Aisa kya kaam aa gaya tha aur kisne muze call kiya tha?
Main ab Varun ki baato ko gaur se sun raha tha. Jaise Nashe ki haalat me se ubharta hua aadmi ho waise mere hosh thikhaane aa rahe the. Maine ladkhadate hue pucha;
Me: k...kka...kaau.kya..kya baat kar raha hain tu Varun?
Varun: Hum dono bachpan se saath hain Samrat. KG se hum dono dost hain. Tuzme aur muzme zyada fark bhi nahi hain. Ab jabki tu fit bhi ho gaya hain to log hume bhai-bhai bhi keh sakte hain. Hain naa?
Me: Kya keh raha hain tu? Tu jaanta hain ki maine tuze hamesha mera bhai maana hain. Yaar teri mom ko main khud bhi mummy hi kehta hu.
Varun: Sahi hain. Teri har baat sahi hain. To phir aisa kyu Samrat?
Me: Kya Varun? Kya kaisa kyu?
Varun: Yahi ki bachpan se lekar aaj tak tuze wo sab mila jo muzko chahiye tha. Tuze yaad hain bachpan me jab hum school me sports me participate karte the aur tu hamesha 1st aata tha aur main aksar tuzse cheedhta tha ki tu muze kabhi 1st nahi aane deta.
Maine 'ha' karte hue apna sir hilaya.
Varun: Kyu nahi tune kabhi aane diya muze 1st Samrat? Ek baar agar main jeet jaata to kya tuzpe kayamat aa jaati?
Main Varun ki koi baat nahi samaz paa raha tha. Magar muze ye saaf mehsoos ho raha tha ki Varun bohot tesh me tha. Uski naak phul gayi thi, aakhe ghusse me laal thi aur uski mutthiya kaske band thi.
Me: Ha. ha. Muze sab yaad hain Varun! Magar wo sab baato ka ab kya mahtva hain Varun?
Varun: Mahatva?? Tu janna chahta hain ki kyu wo baate aaj tak mere dil me hain? Ki kyu KG se lekar aaj tak main tuzse nafrat karta hu kyoki har baar tu jeeta hain. Jo cheez muze chahiye wo hamesha tuze mili hain. Meri apni Maa muzse zyada tuzko pasand karti hain! School me sabse famous tu, School boy tu, Meri maa ka laadla tu, mera chota bhai bhi tuze apna bada bhai maanta hain Samrat! Yaha college me bhi tuzse mera peecha nahi cchuta. Yaha bhi main hamesha teri hi parchaayi me raha hu. Group leader tu.
Varun ke muh se ab thoda thook bhi nikal raha tha. Wo bohot ghusse me tha. Achanak uski nazar hamare peeche khadi Paayal pe padi aur ab wo almost cheekhte hue baat karne laga aur Payal se kehne laga;
Varun: Tuze to pata tha na ki iski gf hain? Huhh? Phir bhi tu ise hi pasand karti hain? Saali main nahi dikhta kya? Muze kya gay samazti hain tu?
Ab mera paara upar chadh gaya tha. Jab tak wo mere baare me baat kar raha tha tab tak main samaz sakta tha magar;
Me: Varun!!! Jabaan sambhal apni. Paayal se izzat se baat kar aur ye bakwaas band kar aur saaf saaf keh ki kya baat hain?
Varun ab Muze cross karke 5-6 sidhiya upar chadh gaya,Neha ki or.
Varun: Main chahta nahi,main keh raha hu Samrat. That I have always hated you. Har baar sab log yahi kehte the ki 'Samrat ye. Samrat wo'. Aisi kaunsi exam thi jisme main tuzse bohot peeche raha? Magar phir bhi. Wo saale kutte school waalo ko to School ka headboy to Samrat hi chahiye tha. Tuze yaar hain Samrat aaj se kuch saal pehle jab hum sab ek hi highschool me the aur maine tuzse kaha tha ki muze ek ladki se bohot pyaar ho gaya hain.
Maine uss baat ko yaad kiya jise ab tak almost 4 saal ho gaye the. Magar muze acche se yaad bhi aa gaya tha.
Varun: yaad hain? bol!!
Me: Ha yaad hain. To kya?
Varun: Tab to tuze ye bhi yaad hoga ki tune mera mazak udaya tha uss waqt. Aaj bhi teri hasi mere kaano me chubhti hain Samrat. Khoon jalta hain mera teri hasi yaad karke. Tuze dost samaz kar batayi thi maine wo baat.
Me: Ha yaad hain muze. Uss waqt to main isliye hasa tha ki tuze har 2 mahine me ek nayi ladki pasand aati thi Varun. I am sorry agar tuze bura laga hoga to.
Varun: Magar uss waqt maine 'pyaar' kaha tha Samrat, 'pasand' nahi kaha tha. Aur ab bohot der ho chuki hain Samrat. tere sorry hone ke liye. Tune mera mazaak udaya tha aur uss mazak me tune ye bhi janna zaroori nahi samza ki wo ladki kaun thi jisse main behad pyaar karta tha.
Beech me hi Payal bol padi.
Payal: Varun ye sab kya bakwaas kar raha hain tu? Sharaab pikar aaya hain kya tu?
Varun ne ghusse me Payal ki or dekha.
Varun: Tu chup kar. Mauka tha tere paas aur tu gawa baithi.
Ab muzse nahi raha ja raha tha.
Me: Kya mauka? Kaisa mauka Varun? Tu ye sab kya betooki baate kar raha hain? Aur kaunsi ladki ki baat kar raha hain tu?
Varun ke chehre par ek muskaan aa gayi jo meri aakho me aaj bhi maujud hain. Nasoor ki tarah!
Varun: Wahi ladki Samrat, jisse main sabse zyada pyaar de sakta tha,jiski har mushkil ghadi me main uske kaam aa sakta tha,jiske hotho ki pyaas main bujha sakta tha. Magar uss ladki ne tuze chuna. Tuze!!
Varun ke hotho se jo hi ye baat nikli,muzpe hazaaro bijliyaa gir gayi. Pairo ke neeche se zameen khisak gayi.
Me: Neha??!!
Varun: Ha Samrat Neha. Teri Neha, jo meri Neha ho sakti thi. 4 saal Samrat. 4 saalo se main use pyaar karta hu. Dum nikalta hain mera jab jab tuze uske saath dekhta hu. Har pal apne naseeb ko kosa hain maine. Magar kehte hain na, "uparwaale ke ghar der hain,andher nahi". Ab maine use tera asli chehra dikha diya hain Samrat. Ki tu sirf aur sirf apne baare me hi sochta hain naa ki kisi aur ke baare me. Neha ke bhi nahi. Ab wo samaz gayi hain ki use asal me kaun pyaar karta hain. Agar main teri jagah hota aur Neha agar muze call karti to main saari duniya se ladh kar bhi uske paas jaata. Naa ki yaha aakar project represention deta. Kyoki Neha me jaan hain meri. You fucking self-obsessed looser.
Varun ne jaise mere zameer pe ek zordaar tamaacha maara ho. Main aasmaan se neeche gir pada. Meri jaban hil nahi rahi thi. Maine Neha ki or dekha jo muzse sirf 10 feet par khadi thi. Wo 10 feet bhi 1000 km jaise lag rahe the. Beech me varun khada tha. Main bohot koshish kar raha tha magar kuch keh nahi paa raha tha.
Varun: Arrre? Kyu Samrat? aaj hamare school ke all time best speaker ki zabaan ko kya hua? chal nahi rahi?............
Ab main sirf Neha ko dekh raha tha. Varun ki baate mere kaano me se aar paar jaa rahi thi. Main usse aakho me hi baate karne laga, ki aakhir kyu? Jab aap relation me hoto ek sense devlope ho jaata hain. Neha samaz gayi. WO dheere dheere 2 sidhiya neeche utari. Varun ab bhi beech me tha.
Neha: Tumne muze ye baat kabhi nahi batayi ki Varun muzse pyaar karta hain!
Kisi tarah maine apni zabaan ko majboor kiya aur kaha;
Me: Ma...maa..main khud nahi jaanta tha Neha. Aur agar bata bhi deta to usse kya farak padta Neha? Tum muzse pyaar karti thi aur main tumse.
Ab Neha ki aakhe bharne lagi thi. Usne siskiyaa lete hue kaha;
Neha: Kya farak padta???? Bilkul padta. In 4 saalo me muze pata hota ki jab muze zaroorat ho to kaun muze sahara dega? Jab main bhatak jau to kaun muze rasta dikhayega? Jab main zindagi me atak jau to kaun mera saath dega?
Neha ke un sawaalo ka ek hi jawaab tha. Main! Samrat. Magar ab wo jawaab nahi chahiye tha use.
Me: Neha! jabse main tumse mila hu, uss pal se maine tumhara saath diya hain, sahara diya hain. Aisa kaunsa pal tha jab tumhe meri zaroorat thi aur main nahi aaya?
Neha ne meri aakho me dekha aur kaha;
Neha: Aaj!!
Meri aakhe fati ki fati reh gayi.
Neha: Aaj subh maine tumhe call kiya. Ye bhi kaha ki muze tumhari zaroorat hain. Magar tum nahi aaye. In pichle 3 mahino me tumne muze waqt hi kitna diya hain Samrat? Bas tum, tumhara project, tumhara carrer,pointer! Ye sab? Where am I in your life Samrat? where?
Neha ki aakho se ek aasoo tapak gar uske mulayam gaalo se neeche hota hua zameen se jaa mila. Main fati aakho se Neha ko dekh raha tha.
Me: Neha. Mera project that. Hum sabka tha. Main,Payal aur Varun ka bhi.
Neha: Ha tha. Magar phir bhi jab muze zaroorat thi tab Varun aaya, tum nahi. Samrat, main aise rishte me nahi rehna chahti jaha sirf tum hi important ho, aur main nahi. Varun ne muze sacchai batayi hain Samrat, ki tumhare liye sirf aur sirf tum khud hi sabse zyada zaroori ho. Aur koi nahi.
Neha ki iss baat ko sun kar meri nazre Varun se jaa mili. Jeet ka khumaar tha un aakho me. Shaitaan ki Muskaan thi uske hotho par. Meri aakho me se aaso tadap rahe the nikalne ke liye, magar maine kisi tarah se unko rok kar rakha tha.
Neha: Nahi hain jawaab mere sawaalo ka? I thought so Samrat. Muze koi aisa chahiye jo meri zindagi ko bhi importance de. Naa ki sirf apni.
Neha ke iss baat se mera dhyaan uski or gaya aur;
Me: Neha! Look, I am sorry agar main tumhe waqt nahi de paaya. But I love you Neha. Tumhe meri zaroorat hain to main hu Neha tumhare saath. We will work it out Neha. Please!
Maine apni poori jaan se, poori shiddat se Neha se bheek maangi ki wo aisa naa kare. Muze ek mauka de.
Neha: Nahi Samrat! Ab nahi. Der ho chuki hain.
Itna keh kar Neha ek kadam peeche ho gayi aur boli;
Neha: Ab hamare beech kuch nahi raha Samrat. We are done Now!
Muzpe to jaise aasmaan fat gaya. Main nahi maan sakta tha. Nahi.. ye nahi ho sakta. Aise nahi. Never! Maine Neha ki or badhne hi waala tha ki Varun beech me aa gaya aur bola;
Varun: Ruk ja Samrat! Ab wo meri gf hain. Kyoki hum dono ek dusre se pyaar karte hain. Stay away from her.
Itna keh kar Varun muskurate hue mud gaya aur Neha ka haath pakar kar use ground me se le gaya. Wo sunsaan ground meri aaj ki sunsaan zindagi ki tarah tha. Mere pairo me taaqat nahi bachi aur aakhir kaar wo dagmaga kar mud gaye. Main ghutno ke bal,zameen ki or dekhte hue sidhiyo pe gir pada. Aas paas ki duniya ab mere liye jaise khamosh ho gayi thi. Panchi, hawa, ped ki sarsarahat. Sab kuch. Khamosh!
Me: Hello! Neha! Thank god tumne call kiya Neha. Tum nahi jaanti muze kitni zaroorat thi tumhari awaaz sunnane ki. Kaha ho tum? Main abhi aa raha hu tumhare paas.
Main ek hi saas me sab kuch keh gaya bina ye soche ki Neha ne kuch suna bhi ya nahi.
Me: Neha?? Meri awaaz aa arhi hain tumhe? tum kuch kehti kyu nahi?
Kuch seconds beet gaye magar Neha kuch nahi boli. Muze laga network me kuch problem hain to;
Me: I think network me problem hain. Ruko. Main tumhe call back karta hu.
Main itna keh kar bas phone apne kaan se hatane hi waala tha ki utne me;
Neha: Hello! Samrat.. I am here.
Maine zat se phone apni kanpatti par dobara laga diya.
Me: Ohh! Kuch kaha kyu nahi phir itni der? Tum ready raho. Main tumhe 20 min me tumhare ghar me se pick up karta hu. I have had a really bad day Neha. I really need you.
Main Varun ko dheere dheere apne nazdik aate dekh raha tha. Mere dil me uske liye jitna ghussa tha wo sab Neha ki bas awaaz bhar se chala gaya tha. Main ab bhi stairs pe hi khada tha.
Neha: Samrat! ummm.. Main ghar par nahi hu!
Me: Ghar par nahi ho? Muze laga ki tumhara college nahi hain aaj. Tum ghar nahi hoto kaha ho?
Neha: Main aaj college nahi gayi. Not atleast apne college.
Me: Kya matlab Neha? Kisi friend ke saath ho kya? Tum kaho to main tumhe wahi se pick up kar leta hu.
Neha: Nahi Samrat. Muze tumse kuch baat karni thi. Isiliye call ki maine.
Me: Ha to mil kar baat karte hain naa. Tum hi to such Keh rahi thi na ki milna hain. I need to see you Neha. Main abhi bohot udas hu. Its like the worst day of my life. Tumse miluga to accha lagega.
Muze Neha ki saaso ki awaaz aane lagi. Main mehsoos kar paa raha tha ki Neha bohot gehri saanse le rahi hain.
Me: Neha? tumhari tabiyat to thik hain naa? Tum kuch zyada hi heavily breath kar rahi ho? Kya hua?
Neha: Samrat!!?
Main ab zara pareshaan hone laga tha.
Me: Ha kaho na!!
Neha ne ek gehri aur lambi saans li aur;
Neha: Samrat main iss waqt tumhare hi college me hu.
Me: Kyaa?? Mere college me? tum yaha kya kar rahi ho? Aur ho kaha tum? abhi aata hu milne tumhe.
Itni der me Varun bhi aa gaya tha. Wo mere saamne khada tha. Kuch 3-4 feet ki doori par. Maine uski or dekh kar use ek finger dikhaya. Main ab bhi naraaz tha uspar.
Neha: Main yahi hu Samrat!!
Me: Yahi?? Kaha par?
Maine ground pe dekhne laga. Kahi koi nahi dikhayi pada. Bilkul sunsaan tha.
Me: Muze to koi nahi dikhayi de raha! Kyu mazak kar rahi ho Neha?
Neha: Nahi Samrat. Main mazak nahi kar rahi. Main yahi hu, ground pe. Just turn around!
Neha ke wo shabd sunte hi main peeche mud gaya aur saamne dekha to Neha kuch 10-15 sidhiya upar khadi thi. Maine Neha ki or dekha. Waaah! Maine upar waale ko shukriya karte hua socha ki itna sundar koi kabhi ho sakta hain kya? Neha ne ek sky blue color ka Kurta aur neeche white color ki salwar pehan rakhi thi. Neha khaas mere kehne par apne baalo ko kabhi bandhati nahi thi. Kyoki wo apne khule baalo me bohot hi sundar dikhti thi. Uske ghane kaale baal. Uska dudh jaisa gora rang aur duniya me sabsi gehri aakhe maine kisi ki dekhi ho to wo Neha ki hi thi. Bilkul kaali raat se bhi kaali aur kisi mahasagar se bhi gehri. Bachpan se sports team me hone ki wajah se Neha ka jism bada hi kasa hua tha. Aur wo sleeveless kurta uske jism ko bakhubi jach raha tha. Uske gore gore haath jinpe baalo ka naamo-nishaan nahi tha. Neha kabhi nail paint nahi lagati thi aur naa hi maine kabhi use make-up karte dekha hain. Zyada se zyada talc ya sunscreen. Zaroorat hi nahi thi use. Meri Neha duniya me sabse sundar nahi thi ye main hamesha se jaanta tha! Actually Payal ka chehra Neha se thoda zyada komal tha. Magar main itna zaroor jaanta tha ki meri duniya me Neha se khubsoorat aur koi cheez nahi thi. Jiss din maine Neha ko paaya uss din ke baad muze aur kisi cheez ke liye tadap nahi rahi. Uski saadgi, uski muskaan aur sabse kimati;uska dil!
Jo hi maine Neha ko dekha mere chehre pe apne aap muskaan aa gayi. Call ab bhi shuru tha. Maine Neha se kaha;
Me: Waah! Aaj kasam khayi hain kya ki college ke har ladke ko mera dushman bana dogi. kyoki jise main dekh raha hu uss ladki se sundar to koi nahi ho sakti.
Neha ne kuch nahi kaha. Wo mere taraf dekhe jaa rahi thi. Main jaldi se sidhiya chadhne laga aur achanak;
Neha: Nahi..Ruko Samrat.
Mere kadam maano jam se gaye the. Main usi pal ruk gaya.
Me: Kyu?kya hua Neha?
Neha ne apne baaye haath se rukne ka ishara kiya aur kehne lagi;
Neha: Kya tum muzse pyaar karte ho Samrat?
Me: Ye kaisa sawal hain Neha?
Neha: Jawab do Samrat. Kya tum muzse pyaar karte ho?
Me: What non-sense is this Neha? Tum jaanti ho ki main tumse pyaar karta hu. Ye tumhe ho kya gaya hain aaj?
Maine Neha ki or dekha aur ek sidhi upar chadhne laga,tabhi;
Neha: Wahi par ruko!
Maine ruk gaya aur sawaaliya nazro se main Neha ki or dekhne laga. Ab tak Varun theek peeche khada tha. Payal bhi nahi samaz paa rahi thi ki ho kya raha hain?
Neha: Kitna pyaar karte ho tum muzse?
Neha ke ye sawal muze bada ajeeb laga. Main nahi jaanta tha ki koi kisi ko ek matra me bhi pyaar kar sakta hain. Shaayad 10 kg,15 kg. Pata nahi!
Me: Kya matlab? Neha I am coming there.
Itna keh kar main aage badhne hi waala tha ki;
Neha: Nahi Samrat!! Agar tum aage badhe to main yaha se chali jaugi. Main bohot himmat karke aayi hu yaha pe. Please!
Main ruk gaya.
Neha: To? Jawab do!
Me: Main tumse itna pyaar karta hu ki agar tum iss waqt jaan ke alawa kuch bhi maang lo to main de du, tumhe saari zindagi khush rakhu aur jab tak tum khush rehna chaho tab tak main zinda rahu.
Maine ye kehte hue Neha ki aakho me dekha. Aur phone par muze ek siski sunayi padi.
Me: Neha? Neha!? TUm ro rahi ho? Kya baar hain Neha?
Main pagal sa ho raha tha. Neha mere saamne khadi thi magar main usko chu nahi paa raha tha. Muze ehsaas hua ki Varun mere peeche khada tha. Mera sabse accha dost. Mera jigri. Maine varun se kaha;
Me: Varun! Varun! Dekh na yaar ye Neha ko pata nahi kya hua hain? ajeeb si baate kar rahi hain. Aur..aur...ab to ro bhi rahi hain. Jaa! Jaake samza teri bhabhi ko yaar. Muze nahi aane de rahi wo.
Maine varun se ye sab ek saans me ho keh diya aur main Neha ko dekhne laga. Kuch seconds ke baad muze ehsaas hua ki Varun putle ki tarah usi jagah par khada tha. Main peeche muda aur Varun se kaha;
Me: Saale dekh kya raha hain? jaa jaakr Use mana. teri bhabhi ko sa............
Main aage kuch aur keh paata utne me hi Varun bola;
Varun: Kaun bhabhi Samrat?
Main Varun ke is sawal se zara cheedh gaya.
Me: Kamine! Abhi subh se Neha ajeeb baate kar rahi hain aur ab tu bhi.. Neha ki baat kar raha hu. Main kya kisi aur se pyaar karta hu kya? tu jaanta hain ki ek hi bhabhi hain teri. Jaa jaldi.
Itna Keh kar main phir se Neha ko dekhne laga.
Me: Neha. I am coming there. Wahi ruko aur tum rona band karo please!
Itna keh kar maine call disconnect kar diya aur jo hi sidhiya chadhne ke liye maine kadam uthaya;
Varun: Main jaanta hu ki tu ek hi ladki se pyaar karta hain Samrat. Magar ab wo meri bhabhi nahi rahi.
Aaj bhi Varun ke wo shabd mere dil me chubhte hain. Aur har chubhan ke saath mere dil me se jaan nikalti jaati hain. Varun ne jo kaha wo sun kar main sakpaka gaya aur turant main mud kar Varun ke saamne chala gaya.
Me: Kya?? Kya kaha tune? Phir se bol saale! Bakwaas na kar. Aaj teri hi wajah se hamari gaand lag gayi aur ab tu aisi baate kar raha hain? Kya matlab wo teri bhabhi nahi rahi?
Main ab bohot ghussa ho gaya tha Varun pe.
Varun: Wahi kaha jo tune suna Samrat. Tu janna chahta tha na ki main college aakar waapis kaha chala gaya? Aisa kya kaam aa gaya tha aur kisne muze call kiya tha?
Main ab Varun ki baato ko gaur se sun raha tha. Jaise Nashe ki haalat me se ubharta hua aadmi ho waise mere hosh thikhaane aa rahe the. Maine ladkhadate hue pucha;
Me: k...kka...kaau.kya..kya baat kar raha hain tu Varun?
Varun: Hum dono bachpan se saath hain Samrat. KG se hum dono dost hain. Tuzme aur muzme zyada fark bhi nahi hain. Ab jabki tu fit bhi ho gaya hain to log hume bhai-bhai bhi keh sakte hain. Hain naa?
Me: Kya keh raha hain tu? Tu jaanta hain ki maine tuze hamesha mera bhai maana hain. Yaar teri mom ko main khud bhi mummy hi kehta hu.
Varun: Sahi hain. Teri har baat sahi hain. To phir aisa kyu Samrat?
Me: Kya Varun? Kya kaisa kyu?
Varun: Yahi ki bachpan se lekar aaj tak tuze wo sab mila jo muzko chahiye tha. Tuze yaad hain bachpan me jab hum school me sports me participate karte the aur tu hamesha 1st aata tha aur main aksar tuzse cheedhta tha ki tu muze kabhi 1st nahi aane deta.
Maine 'ha' karte hue apna sir hilaya.
Varun: Kyu nahi tune kabhi aane diya muze 1st Samrat? Ek baar agar main jeet jaata to kya tuzpe kayamat aa jaati?
Main Varun ki koi baat nahi samaz paa raha tha. Magar muze ye saaf mehsoos ho raha tha ki Varun bohot tesh me tha. Uski naak phul gayi thi, aakhe ghusse me laal thi aur uski mutthiya kaske band thi.
Me: Ha. ha. Muze sab yaad hain Varun! Magar wo sab baato ka ab kya mahtva hain Varun?
Varun: Mahatva?? Tu janna chahta hain ki kyu wo baate aaj tak mere dil me hain? Ki kyu KG se lekar aaj tak main tuzse nafrat karta hu kyoki har baar tu jeeta hain. Jo cheez muze chahiye wo hamesha tuze mili hain. Meri apni Maa muzse zyada tuzko pasand karti hain! School me sabse famous tu, School boy tu, Meri maa ka laadla tu, mera chota bhai bhi tuze apna bada bhai maanta hain Samrat! Yaha college me bhi tuzse mera peecha nahi cchuta. Yaha bhi main hamesha teri hi parchaayi me raha hu. Group leader tu.
Varun ke muh se ab thoda thook bhi nikal raha tha. Wo bohot ghusse me tha. Achanak uski nazar hamare peeche khadi Paayal pe padi aur ab wo almost cheekhte hue baat karne laga aur Payal se kehne laga;
Varun: Tuze to pata tha na ki iski gf hain? Huhh? Phir bhi tu ise hi pasand karti hain? Saali main nahi dikhta kya? Muze kya gay samazti hain tu?
Ab mera paara upar chadh gaya tha. Jab tak wo mere baare me baat kar raha tha tab tak main samaz sakta tha magar;
Me: Varun!!! Jabaan sambhal apni. Paayal se izzat se baat kar aur ye bakwaas band kar aur saaf saaf keh ki kya baat hain?
Varun ab Muze cross karke 5-6 sidhiya upar chadh gaya,Neha ki or.
Varun: Main chahta nahi,main keh raha hu Samrat. That I have always hated you. Har baar sab log yahi kehte the ki 'Samrat ye. Samrat wo'. Aisi kaunsi exam thi jisme main tuzse bohot peeche raha? Magar phir bhi. Wo saale kutte school waalo ko to School ka headboy to Samrat hi chahiye tha. Tuze yaar hain Samrat aaj se kuch saal pehle jab hum sab ek hi highschool me the aur maine tuzse kaha tha ki muze ek ladki se bohot pyaar ho gaya hain.
Maine uss baat ko yaad kiya jise ab tak almost 4 saal ho gaye the. Magar muze acche se yaad bhi aa gaya tha.
Varun: yaad hain? bol!!
Me: Ha yaad hain. To kya?
Varun: Tab to tuze ye bhi yaad hoga ki tune mera mazak udaya tha uss waqt. Aaj bhi teri hasi mere kaano me chubhti hain Samrat. Khoon jalta hain mera teri hasi yaad karke. Tuze dost samaz kar batayi thi maine wo baat.
Me: Ha yaad hain muze. Uss waqt to main isliye hasa tha ki tuze har 2 mahine me ek nayi ladki pasand aati thi Varun. I am sorry agar tuze bura laga hoga to.
Varun: Magar uss waqt maine 'pyaar' kaha tha Samrat, 'pasand' nahi kaha tha. Aur ab bohot der ho chuki hain Samrat. tere sorry hone ke liye. Tune mera mazaak udaya tha aur uss mazak me tune ye bhi janna zaroori nahi samza ki wo ladki kaun thi jisse main behad pyaar karta tha.
Beech me hi Payal bol padi.
Payal: Varun ye sab kya bakwaas kar raha hain tu? Sharaab pikar aaya hain kya tu?
Varun ne ghusse me Payal ki or dekha.
Varun: Tu chup kar. Mauka tha tere paas aur tu gawa baithi.
Ab muzse nahi raha ja raha tha.
Me: Kya mauka? Kaisa mauka Varun? Tu ye sab kya betooki baate kar raha hain? Aur kaunsi ladki ki baat kar raha hain tu?
Varun ke chehre par ek muskaan aa gayi jo meri aakho me aaj bhi maujud hain. Nasoor ki tarah!
Varun: Wahi ladki Samrat, jisse main sabse zyada pyaar de sakta tha,jiski har mushkil ghadi me main uske kaam aa sakta tha,jiske hotho ki pyaas main bujha sakta tha. Magar uss ladki ne tuze chuna. Tuze!!
Varun ke hotho se jo hi ye baat nikli,muzpe hazaaro bijliyaa gir gayi. Pairo ke neeche se zameen khisak gayi.
Me: Neha??!!
Varun: Ha Samrat Neha. Teri Neha, jo meri Neha ho sakti thi. 4 saal Samrat. 4 saalo se main use pyaar karta hu. Dum nikalta hain mera jab jab tuze uske saath dekhta hu. Har pal apne naseeb ko kosa hain maine. Magar kehte hain na, "uparwaale ke ghar der hain,andher nahi". Ab maine use tera asli chehra dikha diya hain Samrat. Ki tu sirf aur sirf apne baare me hi sochta hain naa ki kisi aur ke baare me. Neha ke bhi nahi. Ab wo samaz gayi hain ki use asal me kaun pyaar karta hain. Agar main teri jagah hota aur Neha agar muze call karti to main saari duniya se ladh kar bhi uske paas jaata. Naa ki yaha aakar project represention deta. Kyoki Neha me jaan hain meri. You fucking self-obsessed looser.
Varun ne jaise mere zameer pe ek zordaar tamaacha maara ho. Main aasmaan se neeche gir pada. Meri jaban hil nahi rahi thi. Maine Neha ki or dekha jo muzse sirf 10 feet par khadi thi. Wo 10 feet bhi 1000 km jaise lag rahe the. Beech me varun khada tha. Main bohot koshish kar raha tha magar kuch keh nahi paa raha tha.
Varun: Arrre? Kyu Samrat? aaj hamare school ke all time best speaker ki zabaan ko kya hua? chal nahi rahi?............
Ab main sirf Neha ko dekh raha tha. Varun ki baate mere kaano me se aar paar jaa rahi thi. Main usse aakho me hi baate karne laga, ki aakhir kyu? Jab aap relation me hoto ek sense devlope ho jaata hain. Neha samaz gayi. WO dheere dheere 2 sidhiya neeche utari. Varun ab bhi beech me tha.
Neha: Tumne muze ye baat kabhi nahi batayi ki Varun muzse pyaar karta hain!
Kisi tarah maine apni zabaan ko majboor kiya aur kaha;
Me: Ma...maa..main khud nahi jaanta tha Neha. Aur agar bata bhi deta to usse kya farak padta Neha? Tum muzse pyaar karti thi aur main tumse.
Ab Neha ki aakhe bharne lagi thi. Usne siskiyaa lete hue kaha;
Neha: Kya farak padta???? Bilkul padta. In 4 saalo me muze pata hota ki jab muze zaroorat ho to kaun muze sahara dega? Jab main bhatak jau to kaun muze rasta dikhayega? Jab main zindagi me atak jau to kaun mera saath dega?
Neha ke un sawaalo ka ek hi jawaab tha. Main! Samrat. Magar ab wo jawaab nahi chahiye tha use.
Me: Neha! jabse main tumse mila hu, uss pal se maine tumhara saath diya hain, sahara diya hain. Aisa kaunsa pal tha jab tumhe meri zaroorat thi aur main nahi aaya?
Neha ne meri aakho me dekha aur kaha;
Neha: Aaj!!
Meri aakhe fati ki fati reh gayi.
Neha: Aaj subh maine tumhe call kiya. Ye bhi kaha ki muze tumhari zaroorat hain. Magar tum nahi aaye. In pichle 3 mahino me tumne muze waqt hi kitna diya hain Samrat? Bas tum, tumhara project, tumhara carrer,pointer! Ye sab? Where am I in your life Samrat? where?
Neha ki aakho se ek aasoo tapak gar uske mulayam gaalo se neeche hota hua zameen se jaa mila. Main fati aakho se Neha ko dekh raha tha.
Me: Neha. Mera project that. Hum sabka tha. Main,Payal aur Varun ka bhi.
Neha: Ha tha. Magar phir bhi jab muze zaroorat thi tab Varun aaya, tum nahi. Samrat, main aise rishte me nahi rehna chahti jaha sirf tum hi important ho, aur main nahi. Varun ne muze sacchai batayi hain Samrat, ki tumhare liye sirf aur sirf tum khud hi sabse zyada zaroori ho. Aur koi nahi.
Neha ki iss baat ko sun kar meri nazre Varun se jaa mili. Jeet ka khumaar tha un aakho me. Shaitaan ki Muskaan thi uske hotho par. Meri aakho me se aaso tadap rahe the nikalne ke liye, magar maine kisi tarah se unko rok kar rakha tha.
Neha: Nahi hain jawaab mere sawaalo ka? I thought so Samrat. Muze koi aisa chahiye jo meri zindagi ko bhi importance de. Naa ki sirf apni.
Neha ke iss baat se mera dhyaan uski or gaya aur;
Me: Neha! Look, I am sorry agar main tumhe waqt nahi de paaya. But I love you Neha. Tumhe meri zaroorat hain to main hu Neha tumhare saath. We will work it out Neha. Please!
Maine apni poori jaan se, poori shiddat se Neha se bheek maangi ki wo aisa naa kare. Muze ek mauka de.
Neha: Nahi Samrat! Ab nahi. Der ho chuki hain.
Itna keh kar Neha ek kadam peeche ho gayi aur boli;
Neha: Ab hamare beech kuch nahi raha Samrat. We are done Now!
Muzpe to jaise aasmaan fat gaya. Main nahi maan sakta tha. Nahi.. ye nahi ho sakta. Aise nahi. Never! Maine Neha ki or badhne hi waala tha ki Varun beech me aa gaya aur bola;
Varun: Ruk ja Samrat! Ab wo meri gf hain. Kyoki hum dono ek dusre se pyaar karte hain. Stay away from her.
Itna keh kar Varun muskurate hue mud gaya aur Neha ka haath pakar kar use ground me se le gaya. Wo sunsaan ground meri aaj ki sunsaan zindagi ki tarah tha. Mere pairo me taaqat nahi bachi aur aakhir kaar wo dagmaga kar mud gaye. Main ghutno ke bal,zameen ki or dekhte hue sidhiyo pe gir pada. Aas paas ki duniya ab mere liye jaise khamosh ho gayi thi. Panchi, hawa, ped ki sarsarahat. Sab kuch. Khamosh!